Were u always "gaga" for your spouse?

If you are not "head over heals" now then you probably will not ever be that way. Its a comfortable relationship and it will get boring in time - You need to be honest with him and tell him you like him but that it is just friends with benefits for you. You may or may not meet Mr Right and when you do meet him you will shout it from the rooftops - Good luck P&P :-)